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13 February 2017 @ 04:37 pm
Drabble Fic - Forgetting Sam (12.11)  
Title: Forgetting Sam
Summary: 12.11 Drabble. Dean would pass on happy every time.
Rating: PG13
Genre/Spoilers: Gen. Spoilers for Season 12.
Warnings: Unbeta'd
Word Count: 100
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural that privilege belongs to CW, Kripke and Co, I'm simply borrowing them for a while. I'm not making a profit, this is just for fun and all the standard disclaimers apply.

Forgetting Sam

Sam's stuck on repeat. “Hey, do you remember when...?”

Dean's happy to answer them all, to the point where he's not sure who Sam's trying to reassure. But Sam's looking at him; haunted eyes tear-damp and full of what could have been.

It scares Dean too. Take away his memories and what's left? An empty-shell joker who loves cartoons and playing with guns.

Dean is his family; that's all he has, and all he ever will be. So yeah, Dean will pass on happy, and he'd do it time and time again if it meant he'd forget his brother.

A/N: I loved every moment of this perfectly formed episode!!! It had the perfect mix of humour and heartbreak - and I adored that old school vibe of Mystery Spot. I laughed out loud many times (Dean's "WHHHAAAATTT" and "sucks for that guy" were just two of my personal favourites) and I got teary - there just so many feels. Solid performances, directing, and writing - more please Show!!!! I thought I'd explore Dean's headspace a little here after his passing on happy comment.

caranfindel: pic#122754665caranfindel on February 13th, 2017 04:55 pm (UTC)
Awesome! \o/
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 13th, 2017 05:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you!!!! I loved this episode so very hard - I'm still riding on that squee too :)
JJ1564jj1564 on February 13th, 2017 08:35 pm (UTC)
This is so perfectly Dean, I love it!

And I also loved Dean's "WHHHAAAATTT" and "sucks for that guy", too!
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 14th, 2017 10:48 am (UTC)
Thank you - I'm so happy that this feels very Dean to you! It's heartbreaking to think that he'd sacrifice his own happiness for his family.

(and yes, there were so many memorable funny moments, but those two really stood out to me!!!)
Author, visionary, dreamweaver: H/Ctoratio on February 13th, 2017 09:30 pm (UTC)
That's so beautiful. And so true. Family means everything to Dean. <3
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 14th, 2017 12:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Dean breaks my heart ♥
milly_galmilly_gal on February 14th, 2017 01:22 am (UTC)
Fan-f*cking-tastic *wipes eyes*
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 14th, 2017 12:27 pm (UTC)
Oh Dean - he does seem to love to break our hearts!!! Thank you for reading :)
z_publicizesz_publicizes on February 14th, 2017 04:40 am (UTC)
I love amnesia as a plot trope because of how it can be used to address questions of identity--what is it that makes up a person's sense of self, what are the most formative experiences, what can be lost before you fundamentally can't be the same person anymore. So yes, I loved the ep too, and I love this further bit of Dean's headspace.
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 14th, 2017 12:30 pm (UTC)
It was a treasure of an episode - I adored every moment of it! I'm so happy that you enjoyed the drabble; the idea of Dean sacrificing his happiness for family just breaks my heart. Take care :)
roxymissrose: dean hugroxymissrose on February 15th, 2017 02:31 am (UTC)
We know Dean will give up anything for Sam in a hot minute, and we've seen how he'll give up happy for Sam. This just reminded me of how heartbreaking that is.
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 15th, 2017 11:00 am (UTC)
Yes!!!! Seeing those flashbacks at the very end really did hammer it home how much Dean will sacrifice for his family - heartbreaking!!! Thank you for stopping by :)

tuesdaytootuesdaytoo on February 18th, 2017 06:41 am (UTC)
I can totally see Sam asking that, and I love the ambiguity of who he’s trying to reassure. I really enjoyed this episode and your look at the boys here. Awesome!
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 20th, 2017 11:08 am (UTC)
Thank you!!!! I really liked the idea of Sam testing that Dean's really OK; sort of reassuring them both, and I'm so happy to hear that it worked for you.

I loved this episode too, and that old school vibe of episodes like Mystery Spot and Yellow Fever that it had. Thank you for your kind words :)

Amberamberdreams on February 18th, 2017 07:04 pm (UTC)
madebyme_xmadebyme_x on February 20th, 2017 11:09 am (UTC)
Thank you! ♥
Kallielkalliel on February 25th, 2017 03:40 am (UTC)
I enjoyed this episode so much. SO MUCH. *___* I love Dean's appraisal here about why he'd pass on happy. Especially because exactly what he just described is exactly how he also acts when he's trying to tell Sam he's fine and he's not! Oh Dean! XP